Life

It's crazy how my last post was all about how fun this high school stuff is. This post is not going to be pretty.

Life is SO draining right now. I feel like I have no energy to do anything. And the things I love so dearly are slowly and surely sinking to the back burning... My life as I know it. is slipping out of my hands, and I feel as though it is uncontrollable. Before I felt so much happiness, and each day as I woke up I had this new joy. It's so frustrating not to have that anymore. And I'm sick of it. I feel like I just need to be done with everything. It's not just life in general either, but it's everything I'm committed to. Like, the musical, and taking harder classes, and the worship team for youth group (and the one for children's Church too), and I feel as though no matter how much time I spend with my friends all my friendships are failing.

I'm so tired...

I don't know what to do anymore.

Highschool

This high school stuff is fun.

Anyways, not a totally random topic. I've been quite busy with our high school's musical as of late. It's called the pirates of penzance. And it has been so enjoyable! Our shows are next weekend, and it's hard to believe that we've been working on this production since before school has started. It's crazy. But oh so beautiful. I'm so thankful for the opportunity I got to be in it and make many friendships!

On a side note, I've been having so much fun spending time with friends at harvest parties. Instead of focusing on Halloween during this Halloween season, I focus on fall-y things. Like pumpkins, and apple cider. I'm not much of a Halloween fan, but I do love this time of year. I love it so much.

Fall-y

I love this season. So much.

Today we carved pumpkins. And yes there was a candle lit called "pumpkin spice".

This season makes me so happy.

Cute, huh?

Funny

Funny how things work out, isn't it?

I am absolutely exhausted. When I got up for school this morning all I could think is "I. Am. So. Tired.". Really, I was. Well as I'm sitting in math class the whole school's power goes out. So we continue our day like it's somewhat normal. As I'm sitting in science class, they come over the loud speaker and dismiss school for the rest of the day! It was quite fantastic. So when I got home my mom and I decided to go out for lunch and spend some time together. It's been awhile since we have had one on one time.

I needed a day like today.

Monday already?

What a beautiful weekend. My school won their homecoming game. Fantastic. {We} also had a wonderful evening laughing, making memories, and sharing special moments with friends.

Sigh.


My life is quite lovely.

Does tomorrow have to be Monday, already?

Sick..

I'm a sickie. 

And not enjoying any second of it.

Hopefully I'll be better by the homecoming game tomorrow. One can only hope.