It's crazy how my last post was all about how fun this high school stuff is. This post is not going to be pretty.
Life is SO draining right now. I feel like I have no energy to do anything. And the things I love so dearly are slowly and surely sinking to the back burning... My life as I know it. is slipping out of my hands, and I feel as though it is uncontrollable. Before I felt so much happiness, and each day as I woke up I had this new joy. It's so frustrating not to have that anymore. And I'm sick of it. I feel like I just need to be done with everything. It's not just life in general either, but it's everything I'm committed to. Like, the musical, and taking harder classes, and the worship team for youth group (and the one for children's Church too), and I feel as though no matter how much time I spend with my friends all my friendships are failing.
I'm so tired...
I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't know if this is one of the things you are struggling with, but don't fall into the trap of doing all these things just because you feel like you HAVE to. There comes a point that you need to do what's best for you, and not do things just because it would please others (this can often become an idol). So take a step back, and think about the things you really want to do, and think are what you're here right now to do. Leave the rest up to God. I hope you have the time to enjoy simplicity soon as well. :)
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